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Wednesday, December 8th, 2004
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It's over. It's not sadness that I'm feeling, but I'm just feel weird. I think this is probably the best for me, to end it. I want it to continue so bad, even if it'd only be like how it used to be, but I am only gonna waste more time. I know I am really pathetic. I tried to change, but I can't help it. Maybe after a while, it will fade.
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Saturday, December 4th, 2004
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| Subject: | Goodbye |
| Time: | 4:53 pm. |
| Mood: |  crushed. | | Music: | Mariah Carey- If Only You Knew/ Somewhere Over The Rainbow. |
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It's so hard to say goodbye, and I probably won't.
This is so depressing, and I really don't know how to deal with it. I want to forget about it and move on, but I just can't get it out of my head. What should I do? I feel like I should tell it all. I have nothing to lose, but I don't have the guts. I wanna scream now!!!!!!!!!!
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Sunday, November 7th, 2004
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I'm a week late, but halloween was horrible, thanks to those bitches. I don't think I'm gonna get those pictures. This past week was boring. Had some major drama with my roomates on Friday. Went out with Derrick, Pheobe and Lester the whole weekend. It was kinda fun.
Justin
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Saturday, October 30th, 2004
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Halloween's tomorrow, and I haven't deicided what am I gonna be or if i'm gonna dress up yet. I think I'm gonna go to SF with Andy, Evelyn, Phoebe and Lester, but I don't really wanna go, cuz it's always weird going out with Andy and Evelyn when they together.
I had 4 mid terms last week for English 48A. I did horrible. Lankford told me to do more critics corner to make up the points. My car is great, and I love driving it, but I need to cut down a lil bit, cuz they can lower my insurance if I drive less than 1K in the first month.
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Monday, October 18th, 2004
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I've been so busy lately. Poetry test tomorrow for English 1B, and gotta turn in 12 poetry journals on Wednesday. I've only done 3. Psychology has been kinda fun. It was funny seeing Ms Beely wasting 15 mins of the class time on setting up her stupid computer and the overhead. I'm afraid I'm gonna fail English 48 A. Literature mid terms are next week. Here's the schedule. Monday- The First Americans Tuesday- Puritans Wednesday- Revolutionaries Thursday Rebels. I'm gonna have to re-read all the stuff that we covered in the first 2 weeks, and catch up with the reading as well. Luckily, I have a very easy instructor for my Chem class. Also, have been working on the car stuff. I've been talking to my dad more than ever. It feels kinda good, cuz even when I was at home, all we said were goodmornings and goodnites. I rarely saw him at home anyways.
*I just called my mom, and my dad's outta town again. She said she's in Japan right now, and doesn't know when he's going back. RE*
Justin
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Monday, October 11th, 2004
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I didn't sleep well at all last night. I slept at 1. I was actually really tired when I went to bed, but for some reason, maybe it's a nightmare, I woke up at 3, and just couldn't fall asleep, so I watched some TV, I think it was SNL on E!, and I slept again after a while. Woke up at 6:30. Went to school. English was boring. Mr. Gravenhorst is still trying too hard to be funny that it's actually kinda funny. Nate's being weird, as always, but I really don't care. I skipped Literature, cuz I wanted to study for my Psych test, and I also had some Chem hw to print, but turned out I didn't even look at my Psych notes. I didn't look at the text at all during the weekend. I only read through the notes, thinking that it's gonna be enough. Nope, I just totally bombed it. Dave didn't even read the notes. He's pretty much dead.lol Also, it was funny seeing John walking in with this messy hair, and he was like, damn, I totally forgot that we have a test today. I don't even have a scantron. So I told him to run and get one before the test starts. Chem was okay. I actually have been doing great in this class. I turned in all the hw, and I got perfect scores in the last 2 quiz. I still don't know the girl's name who sits next to me, though we talk everyday. lol
I was gonna go to DMV this afternoon, cuz I STILL haven't got my actual license. It's been almost 5 months. I called a couple of times, and those bitches at DMV are just so rude and unhelpful. They told me that there's nothing they can do and I just have to wait. Bullshit. However, I was so tired that I had to go home and take a nap. I went to Evelyn's place tonight, and played that Donkey Kong game with the drum thing that she just bought. It was so stupid, but so much fun. I haven't watched Tom & Jerry for months. Damn you Cartoon Network!!!!
Justin
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Friday, October 8th, 2004
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I hate Fridays!!! I have to wake up at 7 just for my english class, and I'm done at 9. What am I supposed to do? Go home and sleep again? I'm writing my poetry paper for my English class right now. It's due today, but the professor accept our papers through email as long as we send them in today(before 12). I've only written 2 pages. lol.
Trying not to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray (I would pray)
I could breakaway
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
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Monday, October 4th, 2004
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Where the fuck is everybody? Are you all hiding from me or what??????????????????????????????????
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Saturday, October 2nd, 2004
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Monday, September 27th, 2004
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| Subject: | Flower |
| Time: | 10:07 pm. |
| Mood: |  mellow. | | Music: | Ciara- Goodies(HATE to admit). |
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So school's started for a week. I was taking 5 classes, but that was last week. Now I'm being realistic. English 1B, English 48A(Early American Literature), Psychology 1 and Chem 25, definitely more than enough for me. So far it's not been too bad, but I know it's gonna be tonz reading for me to do. Hope that it's gonna be okay.
P talked to me today. I'm still a little bit surprised, but I don't wanna freak out, and start being miserable again, so well, we'll see.
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Friday, September 17th, 2004
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So, I went back home from a month, and just got back. It was fun seeing all my friends again, especially those who I've known for a really long time. I had such a great time seeing my friends from primary school again. I didn't really talk to them ll that much/at all through all these what, 10 years? but when we got together again, it's just the same old stupid, silly us. It's so weird, yet so great. I didn't really do much, just got together with everybody(some of my friends, I didn't even have time to see. Sowwy), it was fun. At first, I thought it's gonna be boring going home, but I was wrong. It's great seeing you guys again, and I hope we'll still have such a great, quality time next year, or whenever I come back. That's it for now, and I'll try to update my journal more often.
LaTeR
JuStIn
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OMG I went to Alanis Morrisette's concert on Thursday. Barenaked Ladies was also there. They're were great, but I didn't really know them. Alanis was absolutely AMAZING. She sang ALL her hits, even "Thank U". I almost busted into tears when she sang "You Oughta Know" and "Ironic". Everybody was singing along. She seemed really nice and happy. It's definitely one of the greatest concerts I've been to.
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Let it go, if it's something you can't control. Maybe it'll come back to you eventually.
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The summer quarter has started for a week. It's been fun. I love my speech class. The professor is so cool. I thought the class would be so boring, and we'd just be sitting there in groups discussing stupid stuff, but she made it so much fun.
My weekend was kinda boring. I did go out, but it was boring. I don't even remember what I did. Crazy sh*t happened yesterday afternoon. It was Sammy's b-day last friday, so Evelyn and I went to his place. I knew all along that Andy(Evelyn's bf) didn't like Sammy. He didn't like Evelyn hanging out with any other guys. They kinda got into a fight on Friday, so I didn't see Andy at all that night. Sammy and Alex came to have lunch, and stayed for the afternoon on Saturday. Suddenly somebody knocked the door. We all knew it's Andy, so we're kinda worried, cuz Andy HATES Sammy, but Evelyn told us to ignore it. After 15 mins, we all thought he'd be gone, and Alex had to leave for dinner. So we all went out. Oops, Andy's still out there sitting by the door. So I hid Sammy in the toilet quickly, and saw Andy walking in, looking angrier than ever. He wanted to break into the toilet, cuz he knew Sammy's in there. Evelyn took him outta the place. Then I saw him broke the windows with his bare hand. He wanted to kill someone. He was totally bleeding and all. Evelyn was crying, and they went back in her room, so I went to the toilet and grabbed Sammy in my room. They were screaming and yelling. It's like when you're young your parents were screaming at each other and you just didn't know what to do. I didn't know Andy's such a jealous psycho. After some 30 mins, he left. Everything was fine. They were laughing and being stupid like they used to, but I don't know if Andy hates me or not. Whatever...
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The summer quarter is starting tomorrow. I'm gonna miss spring. I'm gonna miss the classmate(s). lol.
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Thursday, June 17th, 2004
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omg I haven't updated for a long time! The formal dance was last friday. I won the fucking best dressed guy. LMAO, can you believe it? I'm not kidding. I won a fucking $10 Chili's dinning card. lol how lame... It was alot of fun. My date, I can care less about her. She was horrible. She never danced. She was just being a bitch, and I'm being kind.
Nothing much happened. Finals are next week. I don't know what I'm gonna do. I got an essay to write, and alos a re-write. I can't believe it's already the last week. I feel like the quarter only started. I don't really want it to end. It's been fun, and yea...
I bought Christina Milian's new CD yesterday. It's really good. Love it! And the Simple Life 2 is tonite!!!!! I'm so excited! Don't miss it you guys!
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Math mid-term was today. I think I did pretty well. Finals in 2 weeks, gotta start reviewing. It feels like the quarter has only started for a week or 2. I haven't done anything, nothing! I had alot of goals at the beginning of the quarter. I fail them all.
I'm frustrated, really frustrated.
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I have nothing. I have nobody. After all it's only music and me. Only music can understand me.
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Got my essay back yesterday... bleh...
Woken up at 9 this morning by someone at the door. Failed to fall asleep again. Did some hw, bought some new clothes. Just got back from watching "The Day After Tomorrow." We were gonna watch the new Harry Potter film, but it's sold out.
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